The Week

This week feels likes a roller coaster ride of emotions. Not really to that extent, but something like that. Been struggling over my individual assignment, I ALSO DON'T KNOW WHY. Just feels all so tough and wanna give up. But I survived. Haha!

This assignment made me think alot. Kept having the 'quit-school' thought. But yaaa it takes a lot of courage and maybe even after 1.5 years I'll still be here. Maybe just need to rant.

It's like after completing a burden, you have another burden to take up. And it goes on... Then again, it's my choice of route. I'll finish what I start.

I wanna faster complete my degree, work and earn and save money, buy a condo and a car and a dog, live happily.

Hope everyone's doing good too :)

Everyday I'm Wondering

Damn it, many thoughts in my mind again.

Live a life you want, or live a life other people want?
Live a life you want, or live a life for the sake of living?

Are you doing what you really want?
WHAT do you really WANT?

What to do? NOW OR NEVER?

Life is all about taking risks. It's either you take it, or you won't. Live under a shield or to venture out. But, it's much easier said than done. Everyone wants security. To have at least something you can fall back on. But again, even if you have nothing to fall back on, at least you are still living. You can still fight.

So is life really all about taking risks? I think life is an abyss of contradictions. You want, but scared, but why? Then suddenly motivated, but suddenly all demoralised. There's just this little voice controlling you. Either you win that voice or just follow it.

How strong is your drive? What's your satisfactory level? What do you really want?


Uh-huh. How I hope I could write my individual assignment as flowily as I'm typing this.