When I wanna say "I try to be happy", it suddenly struck me that I once also said that sometimes the more you try hard to achieve something, it may be even harder to get.
So, for simple things, just let nature takes its course. You'll be happy if you feel happy. You don't need to try hard. :)
The main thing that actually got me to write a post is that, I was dumbfounded.
I was dumbfounded when asked "What do you want to be?", "What's your hobby?", etc.
I felt so lost.
Yes, lost even with my hobby. What I like, is just seeing people around me happy. Can this be a hobby? Can being accomodating be a hobby? I don't know!
Sometimes I do admire people who are upfront selfish. Or maybe they aren't, they are just paving their future/dreams/hobbies.
Whatever.
I just need to vent, for the emo phase is here again.
As said, I need confidence. I need courage.
I won't know what the future may bring, I also don't know what I should do. I shan't think too much.
Another start of a new week. Good week and good end for the year of 2012 everyone :)
Monday, December 17, 2012
Friday, November 9, 2012
All in One
Liberation never felt this good before. Yes, the (hopefully) last exams for uni! I must say, this is the worst sem in terms of everything except the people. Classmates in particular, not lecturers, or LECTURER. Study break was worst. No sense of urgency, till the day before each paper. Confidence fluctuating, suddenly thinking about fail, suddenly very confident. This is crazy. And study like never study. Whole day can study 1 chapter.
BUT the irony is that it is the last sem. I just hope everything will be well, and I won't fail.... _||_ *prays*
Whatever it is, gonna enjoy now! Can't wait for BKK!!! My life is back to normal. Missing the late nights and supper with DJG! Can/need to exercise, play with Yoshi, find job, watch shows, bla bla bla bla bla!!! :D
Andddddd. During this period, attended Jayme's 21st, Yimin's Masquerade 21st and Yufang's Mickey Mouse 21st!
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| Intellectual Uni Buddy, Scorpio Friend! |
Oh ya~ And USS!!!
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| See, got evidence. Haha! |
AND CH's 21st in September
Heh. Will be back~
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Vulnerabilities
I don't like to feel vulnerable. It makes me feel like I've lost my self-worth. Then, I'll store everything in. So much for guarding the heart, but, it still hurts a little.
Idk.. And I don't wanna sound weak. But truth is, I really love you, miss you, want you.
Secret~
;)
Idk.. And I don't wanna sound weak. But truth is, I really love you, miss you, want you.
Secret~
;)
Monday, September 3, 2012
Personality Test
ISFJs are characterized above all by their desire to serve others, their
"need to be needed." In extreme cases, this need is so strong that
standard give-and-take relationships are deeply unsatisfying to them;
however, most ISFJs find more than enough with which to occupy
themselves within the framework of a normal life. (Since ISFJs, like
all SJs, are very much bound by the prevailing social conventions, their
form of "service" is likely to exclude any elements of moral or
political controversy; they specialize in the local, the personal, and
the practical.)
ISFJs are often unappreciated, at work, home, and play. Ironically, because they prove over and over that they can be relied on for their loyalty and unstinting, high-quality work, those around them often take them for granted--even take advantage of them. Admittedly, the problem is sometimes aggravated by the ISFJs themselves; for instance, they are notoriously bad at delegating ("If you want it done right, do it yourself"). And although they're hurt by being treated like doormats, they are often unwilling to toot their own horns about their accomplishments because they feel that although they deserve more credit than they're getting, it's somehow wrong to want any sort of reward for doing work (which is supposed to be a virtue in itself). (And as low-profile Is, their actions don't call attention to themselves as with charismatic Es.) Because of all of this, ISFJs are often overworked, and as a result may suffer from psychosomatic illnesses.
In the workplace, ISFJs are methodical and accurate workers, often with very good memories and unexpected analytic abilities; they are also good with people in small-group or one-on-one situations because of their patient and genuinely sympathetic approach to dealing with others. ISFJs make pleasant and reliable co-workers and exemplary employees, but tend to be harried and uncomfortable in supervisory roles. They are capable of forming strong loyalties, but these are personal rather than institutional loyalties; if someone they've bonded with in this way leaves the company, the ISFJ will leave with them, if given the option. Traditional careers for an ISFJ include: teaching, social work, most religious work, nursing, medicine (general practice only), clerical and and secretarial work of any kind, and some kinds of administrative careers.
While their work ethic is high on the ISFJ priority list, their families are the centers of their lives. ISFJs are extremely warm and demonstrative within the family circle--and often possessive of their loved ones, as well. When these include Es who want to socialize with the rest of the world, or self-contained ITs, the ISFJ must learn to adjust to these behaviors and not interpret them as rejection. Being SJs, they place a strong emphasis on conventional behavior (although, unlike STJs, they are usually as concerned with being "nice" as with strict propriety); if any of their nearest and dearest depart from the straight-and-narrow, it causes the ISFJ major embarrassment: the closer the relationship and the more public the act, the more intense the embarrassment (a fact which many of their teenage children take gleeful advantage of). Over time, however, ISFJs usually mellow, and learn to regard the culprits as harmless eccentrics :-). Needless to say, ISFJs take infinite trouble over meals, gifts, celebrations, etc., for their loved ones--although strong Js may tend to focus more on what the recipient should want rather than what they do want.
Like most Is, ISFJs have a few, close friends. They are extremely loyal to these, and are ready to provide emotional and practical support at a moment's notice. (However, like most Fs they hate confrontation; if you get into a fight, don't expect them to jump in after you. You can count on them, however, run and get the nearest authority figure.) Unlike with EPs, the older the friendship is, the more an ISFJ will value it. One ISFJ trait that is easily misunderstood by those who haven't known them long is that they are often unable to either hide or articulate any distress they may be feeling. For instance, an ISFJ child may be reproved for "sulking," the actual cause of which is a combination of physical illness plus misguided "good manners." An adult ISFJ may drive a (later ashamed) friend or SO into a fit of temper over the ISFJ's unexplained moodiness, only afterwards to explain about a death in the family they "didn't want to burden anyone with." Those close to ISFJs should learn to watch for the warning signs in these situations and take the initiative themselves to uncover the problem.
Take test here: Personality Test
Quite accurate for me, so scaryyyyyy.
ISFJs are often unappreciated, at work, home, and play. Ironically, because they prove over and over that they can be relied on for their loyalty and unstinting, high-quality work, those around them often take them for granted--even take advantage of them. Admittedly, the problem is sometimes aggravated by the ISFJs themselves; for instance, they are notoriously bad at delegating ("If you want it done right, do it yourself"). And although they're hurt by being treated like doormats, they are often unwilling to toot their own horns about their accomplishments because they feel that although they deserve more credit than they're getting, it's somehow wrong to want any sort of reward for doing work (which is supposed to be a virtue in itself). (And as low-profile Is, their actions don't call attention to themselves as with charismatic Es.) Because of all of this, ISFJs are often overworked, and as a result may suffer from psychosomatic illnesses.
In the workplace, ISFJs are methodical and accurate workers, often with very good memories and unexpected analytic abilities; they are also good with people in small-group or one-on-one situations because of their patient and genuinely sympathetic approach to dealing with others. ISFJs make pleasant and reliable co-workers and exemplary employees, but tend to be harried and uncomfortable in supervisory roles. They are capable of forming strong loyalties, but these are personal rather than institutional loyalties; if someone they've bonded with in this way leaves the company, the ISFJ will leave with them, if given the option. Traditional careers for an ISFJ include: teaching, social work, most religious work, nursing, medicine (general practice only), clerical and and secretarial work of any kind, and some kinds of administrative careers.
While their work ethic is high on the ISFJ priority list, their families are the centers of their lives. ISFJs are extremely warm and demonstrative within the family circle--and often possessive of their loved ones, as well. When these include Es who want to socialize with the rest of the world, or self-contained ITs, the ISFJ must learn to adjust to these behaviors and not interpret them as rejection. Being SJs, they place a strong emphasis on conventional behavior (although, unlike STJs, they are usually as concerned with being "nice" as with strict propriety); if any of their nearest and dearest depart from the straight-and-narrow, it causes the ISFJ major embarrassment: the closer the relationship and the more public the act, the more intense the embarrassment (a fact which many of their teenage children take gleeful advantage of). Over time, however, ISFJs usually mellow, and learn to regard the culprits as harmless eccentrics :-). Needless to say, ISFJs take infinite trouble over meals, gifts, celebrations, etc., for their loved ones--although strong Js may tend to focus more on what the recipient should want rather than what they do want.
Like most Is, ISFJs have a few, close friends. They are extremely loyal to these, and are ready to provide emotional and practical support at a moment's notice. (However, like most Fs they hate confrontation; if you get into a fight, don't expect them to jump in after you. You can count on them, however, run and get the nearest authority figure.) Unlike with EPs, the older the friendship is, the more an ISFJ will value it. One ISFJ trait that is easily misunderstood by those who haven't known them long is that they are often unable to either hide or articulate any distress they may be feeling. For instance, an ISFJ child may be reproved for "sulking," the actual cause of which is a combination of physical illness plus misguided "good manners." An adult ISFJ may drive a (later ashamed) friend or SO into a fit of temper over the ISFJ's unexplained moodiness, only afterwards to explain about a death in the family they "didn't want to burden anyone with." Those close to ISFJs should learn to watch for the warning signs in these situations and take the initiative themselves to uncover the problem.
Take test here: Personality Test
Quite accurate for me, so scaryyyyyy.
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Wondering for the Nth Time
Just wondering.. how long can things last, how to be a better person, how to communicate better... Sometimes I want a hole just to hide myself. I'm really weird.
I hope this is just an emo phase.
Or my brain's connections going haywire.
Please be fixed soon.
So many things I wanna say but I don't know how/what.
I hope this is just an emo phase.
Or my brain's connections going haywire.
Please be fixed soon.
So many things I wanna say but I don't know how/what.
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Love-hate
I hate how I can be so capricious at times. This led me to many thoughts inevitably.
Obviously horoscope doesn't define one; although it is true to quite a large extent for myself. Sometimes, I really dislike myself for being a Capricorn. It feels like a devil meets angel situation. I get held back by some strong forces within, uncontrollably, even when it might oppose what I want or how I feel.
We are not without positive traits though. These are what made me glad that I am a Capricorn, which really is quite confusing to the above mentioned.
Love-hate relationship with my horoscope I guess.
Obviously horoscope doesn't define one; although it is true to quite a large extent for myself. Sometimes, I really dislike myself for being a Capricorn. It feels like a devil meets angel situation. I get held back by some strong forces within, uncontrollably, even when it might oppose what I want or how I feel.
We are not without positive traits though. These are what made me glad that I am a Capricorn, which really is quite confusing to the above mentioned.
Love-hate relationship with my horoscope I guess.
Saturday, August 18, 2012
A Quarter and More
Initially, I typed 'Halfway There' as the title then to realize, there are more to it. But soon it will be, school will end.
Now I'm in the midst of projects and more. There are many incomplete parts I have yet to touch. I don't know if it's my problem or what. The more I try to do, the more confusing it gets. Projects are for pro, not me. I'm just a fake professor. Haha!
Maybe I shall change back my firefox skin to Volkswagen to feel the drive~ Instead of this dumb spongebob.
Need to buck up.
Sianzzz
Now I'm in the midst of projects and more. There are many incomplete parts I have yet to touch. I don't know if it's my problem or what. The more I try to do, the more confusing it gets. Projects are for pro, not me. I'm just a fake professor. Haha!
Maybe I shall change back my firefox skin to Volkswagen to feel the drive~ Instead of this dumb spongebob.
Need to buck up.
Sianzzz
Saturday, July 14, 2012
You Can Try This At Home
I just had to research on this and would like to share with anyone here. I thought this was pretty good.
Credits: Henrik Edberg "How to Quickly Change a Negative Mood into a Positive One"
I'll try to keep them in mind! I saw most that typically will work well as advises but no, they're difficult to put in place. Forcing a smile seems easier.
And I always like this lyrics:
"Smile, though your heart is aching.
Smile, even though it's breaking.
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by."
- Smile, Michael Jackson
Thanks MJ!
Credits: Henrik Edberg "How to Quickly Change a Negative Mood into a Positive One"
Here are some ways to transform negative energy into positive ones!
- Work Out - can stay positive, can lose weight. Kudos.
- Listen to/watch inspirational material
- Change your physiology - many other things are easier said than done. but, try forcing a smile for 60 seconds.
- Appreciate away - instead of complaining about every single thing.
- Act as you'd like to feel
- Just do it anyway
I'll try to keep them in mind! I saw most that typically will work well as advises but no, they're difficult to put in place. Forcing a smile seems easier.
And I always like this lyrics:
"Smile, though your heart is aching.
Smile, even though it's breaking.
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by."
- Smile, Michael Jackson
Thanks MJ!
Monday, July 2, 2012
Special
Did I mention before how special these little fur balls are? The daddy is yellow/orange/brown in color while the mummy is grey but turning whiter. Their first batch of babies followed suit - boy in yellow and girl in grey. Cute thing is, their second batch was a complete opposite. Boys in grey and a girl in yellow.
:)
Over-thinking
Someone once asked me how can I not think too much. This led me thinking. What did I do to not think too much? How to not think too much?
After thinking and more thinking, even coming across horoscope tweets saying, "The mind of a #Capricorn is always planning & thinking things thoroughly." and "Even when a #Capricorn is quiet our mind is always working full speed.", I wonder how I manage to "think less".
Practising "selective botherism" is one way. Meaning, you choose what you want to be bothered by. Having inner peace is another way, where you can just think but keep calm and compose yourself.
For example, thinking about every possible thing - positive or negative - then weigh them and think that things won't be that bad. Even if it is, you have thought of it before, meaning you'll be more prepared for any outcome and therefore the impact will be less.
What I realized, then, is that these are just brainwashing techniques ain't it? Either you're helping yourself by really screening out stupid things that are bothering you, or you avoid issues by brainwashing yourself that you may just be over-thinking. Something like that.
So, I actually don't know how to not think too much when it's always easier said than done. Perhaps just carry positive thoughts and things will be much better.
I'm a thinker, thinking about almost anything. From tiny things like should I walk fast or slow, brush my teeth longer or quicker, take a bite on my food now or later, post photo on instagram now or later, view twitter now or later, to more major issues starting with the what ifs.
I guess too much thinking has resulted in me being less decisive and depending on "fate" to decide. Like if I don't know where to go, I'll see which bus comes first then it will decide for me that kind of thing.
And it can be really annoying.
After thinking and more thinking, even coming across horoscope tweets saying, "The mind of a #Capricorn is always planning & thinking things thoroughly." and "Even when a #Capricorn is quiet our mind is always working full speed.", I wonder how I manage to "think less".
Practising "selective botherism" is one way. Meaning, you choose what you want to be bothered by. Having inner peace is another way, where you can just think but keep calm and compose yourself.
For example, thinking about every possible thing - positive or negative - then weigh them and think that things won't be that bad. Even if it is, you have thought of it before, meaning you'll be more prepared for any outcome and therefore the impact will be less.
What I realized, then, is that these are just brainwashing techniques ain't it? Either you're helping yourself by really screening out stupid things that are bothering you, or you avoid issues by brainwashing yourself that you may just be over-thinking. Something like that.
So, I actually don't know how to not think too much when it's always easier said than done. Perhaps just carry positive thoughts and things will be much better.
I'm a thinker, thinking about almost anything. From tiny things like should I walk fast or slow, brush my teeth longer or quicker, take a bite on my food now or later, post photo on instagram now or later, view twitter now or later, to more major issues starting with the what ifs.
I guess too much thinking has resulted in me being less decisive and depending on "fate" to decide. Like if I don't know where to go, I'll see which bus comes first then it will decide for me that kind of thing.
And it can be really annoying.
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Life, Yet Again
I realized when I'm not feeling very up, I come to this space. Updates getting lesser, contents getting drier, bla bla. Still, it has helped me through emo phases. Then, I chanced upon a friend's blog where it coincidentally contained a post about her different purposes of social medias from which I shared the same sentiments (Click here to view post).
I guess this is a habit. I used to write in personal diaries, which became quite a chore since typing is much more convenient. Blogging became an enjoyable task regardless of whether anyone reads it. Sometimes I even feel that I'm talking to myself. But well, me-time :D I do feel guilty that after having a twitter account, I treat my blog so badly. Haha. Weird.
Mixed feelings strirring inside me again. All the alphabets are in front of me, yet it is tough to express myself. Suddenly it struck me - tough to express, don't wanna express or cannot express?
Life, yet again.
I guess this is a habit. I used to write in personal diaries, which became quite a chore since typing is much more convenient. Blogging became an enjoyable task regardless of whether anyone reads it. Sometimes I even feel that I'm talking to myself. But well, me-time :D I do feel guilty that after having a twitter account, I treat my blog so badly. Haha. Weird.
Mixed feelings strirring inside me again. All the alphabets are in front of me, yet it is tough to express myself. Suddenly it struck me - tough to express, don't wanna express or cannot express?
Life, yet again.
Friday, June 1, 2012
Yoshi
Today, yoshi had itchy teeth and wanted to bite his cage. He ended up having his teeth stuck under it, and screaming in pain.
*I promise I'll be a good boy*
*I promise I'll be a good boy*
Monday, May 21, 2012
Updates
Okay this is a little delayed but, exams ended! This sem felt crazy, the whole thing from school term to study break and exams, and post-exam.
An emotional one.
School, people, personal. It's over for now, though, and currently in my last holiday as a student. Can what I planned be fulfilled? Will I be able to do what I want? What's gonna happen? My mind can't seem to stop thinking, much more than these. Sometimes I wonder if it's my problem, because I always have things churning in my mind but they can't seem to all be expressed.
Whatever it is, I need to pray hard that I can move on successfully toward the next and last sem.
So much mixed feelings and random thoughts. "Don't think too much" is such an understatement but still hoping it helps. Haha.
Heavy-minded; heavy-hearted.
An emotional one.
School, people, personal. It's over for now, though, and currently in my last holiday as a student. Can what I planned be fulfilled? Will I be able to do what I want? What's gonna happen? My mind can't seem to stop thinking, much more than these. Sometimes I wonder if it's my problem, because I always have things churning in my mind but they can't seem to all be expressed.
Whatever it is, I need to pray hard that I can move on successfully toward the next and last sem.
So much mixed feelings and random thoughts. "Don't think too much" is such an understatement but still hoping it helps. Haha.
Heavy-minded; heavy-hearted.
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
5 Cs and 1 H
Just so random. A question with many branches.
"When you are old, what would you want most to happen?"
- What would you like to see yourself as?
- Who would you like to be surrounding you?
- Where would you want to be?
Why? Because it's your life.
How? You gotta start making things happen.
"When you are old, what would you want most to happen?"
- What would you like to see yourself as?
- Who would you like to be surrounding you?
- Where would you want to be?
Why? Because it's your life.
How? You gotta start making things happen.
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Don't Give Up?
Because people give up trying. They won't know the results in the end. Either it's a long way, or it might just be one step away.
But one gets tired too.
But one gets tired too.
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Friday, April 6, 2012
Why
Many many questions to life and all its aspects. I always question myself, then give convincing and comforting answers. Even not, it'll be some hard truths that need to be accepted without a choice.
Life.
有时候不明白，也不需要明白。
无所谓。
- 傻子
Life.
有时候不明白，也不需要明白。
无所谓。
- 傻子
Friday, March 30, 2012
"End of Sem 2"
I survived the project period.
Wheeee~ First day of "holiday" today. Super bored and aimless day. I planned for it to be aimless. Anyway, this sem is quite different. New group mates for different modules. Learned many many things. So glad I have Felicia and Yimin with me, else uni life would be ................. don't even wanna think.
Well, ups and downs are inevitable. Still, glad it's over :D
Left with exams for now. And my plans for life.
Wheeee~ First day of "holiday" today. Super bored and aimless day. I planned for it to be aimless. Anyway, this sem is quite different. New group mates for different modules. Learned many many things. So glad I have Felicia and Yimin with me, else uni life would be ................. don't even wanna think.
Well, ups and downs are inevitable. Still, glad it's over :D
Left with exams for now. And my plans for life.
Saturday, March 3, 2012
你相信缘份吗？
两个人的偶遇，是一件很奇妙的事。
珍惜。
太皮彩妮丝意思块特番。莱克哈夫迪普纳斯。
哈哈哈。
Laugh if you understood. Laugh, too, if you do not.
"Worrying is a waste of time."
珍惜。
太皮彩妮丝意思块特番。莱克哈夫迪普纳斯。
哈哈哈。
Laugh if you understood. Laugh, too, if you do not.
"Worrying is a waste of time."
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Reflection
Feeling lousy all of a sudden.
Do people always try to be the best? In the surface or deep inside too?
Sometimes I'll just think, why am I the way I am?
-strong but weak
-weak but strong
-brave but timid
-timid but brave
-stupid but smart
-smart but stupid
-hardworking but lazy
-lazy but hardworking
-stubborn but giving
-expressive but inexpressive
-and whatever goes..
Need to achieve the Golden Mean.
Do people always try to be the best? In the surface or deep inside too?
Sometimes I'll just think, why am I the way I am?
-strong but weak
-weak but strong
-brave but timid
-timid but brave
-stupid but smart
-smart but stupid
-hardworking but lazy
-lazy but hardworking
-stubborn but giving
-expressive but inexpressive
-and whatever goes..
Need to achieve the Golden Mean.
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Updates
Seems like my blogging vibe has faded away. But, just wanna have at least one post every month! Ah, so meaningless.
Anyway, life has been... Never better! (if you wanna be positive) I believe when one is positive, people around will be positive too. Theories of #ProfessorP shall be spread. Muahahaha.
Life in actual fact is not that fantastic but not too bad. Can't complain, can I? And I'm not gonna rant :) Just gonna cherish what I have, to be a better individual, improving myself, to share, to encourage, to be happy, to....... many more to come!
School wise, it's a little crazy how I felt like school just started and deadlines come piling up. Expectations, standards, quality... 要做就做到最好! And worrying brings you nowhere. Though it's inevitable sometimes, we still need to practise moderation. Everyday, learn.
Be happy, people! All my imaginary readers. *\(^o^)/*
米修米修。
Anyway, life has been... Never better! (if you wanna be positive) I believe when one is positive, people around will be positive too. Theories of #ProfessorP shall be spread. Muahahaha.
Life in actual fact is not that fantastic but not too bad. Can't complain, can I? And I'm not gonna rant :) Just gonna cherish what I have, to be a better individual, improving myself, to share, to encourage, to be happy, to....... many more to come!
School wise, it's a little crazy how I felt like school just started and deadlines come piling up. Expectations, standards, quality... 要做就做到最好! And worrying brings you nowhere. Though it's inevitable sometimes, we still need to practise moderation. Everyday, learn.
Be happy, people! All my imaginary readers. *\(^o^)/*
米修米修。
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Angrayyyyy
Last day of January. Just nice when I have the need to post something.
Nothing much actually. Just angry with myself at myself.
It feels like a victim of stupidity.
Bye.
Nothing much actually. Just angry with myself at myself.
It feels like a victim of stupidity.
Bye.
Saturday, January 14, 2012
School, AGAIN.
So we're all back to school again. First week just ended. Rusty brain is getting some oil and I hope things go well.
Confidence and effort are the key ingredients and I'm gonna keep myself motivated.
I can do it.
:) <3
Random: Mind is playing 林宥嘉's 心酸 and heart is feeling the sourness. Vice versa.
Confidence and effort are the key ingredients and I'm gonna keep myself motivated.
I can do it.
:) <3
Random: Mind is playing 林宥嘉's 心酸 and heart is feeling the sourness. Vice versa.
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